Littledear's ADHD writings

Obama

Gunnar — Mon, 03 Nov 2008 20:05:53 +0000

my fears over this election are fairly large. and by that I mean, i am terrified. im scared that people will cheat and that things will go the wrong way again.

I guess im sick of hearing about it and am ready for it to be over!

Thank god tomorrow is almost here.

I love ths

littledear — Sat, 01 Nov 2008 23:23:14 +0000

website

http://www.papayalicious.com/page/page/3547068.htm

i want ALL my birthday presents from them. i mean, minus the guitar, drum kit, ipod, new phone and keyboard i want….

quote from dance class a while back

littledear — Sat, 25 Oct 2008 19:37:20 +0000

“Barefoot potential”

There

littledear — Sat, 25 Oct 2008 19:26:59 +0000

is this girl. Who goes to another school near me. She is adorable and we spent an hour at the langdon street cafe on Wednesday while she was supposed to be hanging out with a friend of ours, getting fucked up. We don’t seem to have a lot in common but when i wrote her my concerns about this she said that she took no offence to my worries (something ELSE i was worried about…) and that she’d ” rather you tell me something like that that is important to you rather than holding it in.”

NICE to hear. And this makes me realize that in my last relationship, i was not told very often how nice it was to see me, or if she enjoyed the time we had spent together in the first place. So even though im not sure if anything will happen yet with this new girl, it does have a different feel to it so far.

That’s the news in the love department for me.

On the friendship side of things, I’m just hanging in sweats at my best friends house for today. Later tonight she has a gig at a nearby restaurant and I’m doing the door for her there (collecting moneysss from people when they come through said door). Then tomorrow we’re recording some stuff with John. Should be a low action weekend as weekends go….but a fairly nice one… Next weekend though, wow…Halloween (QUE HUUUUUGE ARGUMENT WITH MY MOTHER). Then a gig in far off all by myself. i did invite someone to do this with me but since they turned down the rehearsal time/date i suggested, i figure they’re not up for it. Sunday I have off though which is awesome.

this morning

littledear — Sun, 12 Oct 2008 02:07:23 +0000

i had a dream about pink glitter covered bananas. Pretty badass if i do say so myself…then i woke up, fell back asleep and 20 minuets later the terror of my life, my dear, dear mother, comes in and wakes me up.

littledear — Thu, 09 Oct 2008 01:13:37 +0000

There was a thing i had with DEER. started feb 16th and went till may 12ish i think. Then off and on all summer. She cheated on me and didnt think we had a relationship. whatever. We still made out a lot. My parents freaked out and grounded me when they found weed from her. I didnt see her for a while. Then started school and we started seeing a little more of eachother. we just fit well. like, we knew each others bodies well but not personalities.
About 3 weeks ago i asked her outright if she liked me or not. and she responded, “No.” and i knew, in my heart, she didnt like me.
So i tried to let her go. And i started realizing, it was really really hard. I cared about her A LOT. and she really only cares about getting high and getting drunk. that, everyday, is her one goal. really depressing if you have codependent tendencies (me).
anyway, saw her in town a lot today. and i just CRAVE her. finally at the end of the day, i was sitting on the bench on state st. and she just comes up to me and tries to kiss me. and i turned away. I said “no. You dont LIKE me, remember?” and she walked away. see, I tore my own belly apart. because it’s not fucking good for me. i love her, she doesnt love me. and in my brain, i know i need, deserve, someone better. But no one has come along and i feel like shit. and very confused. and of course, like always, i miss her. I want her.

photos of art. MY art.

littledear — Thu, 09 Oct 2008 00:53:50 +0000

Some new art that happens to be hanging on my wall.

thoughts??

today

littledear — Wed, 08 Oct 2008 03:28:12 +0000

Thought I had a lesson with my good pal john. John…to sum him up, i shall use the wordagez-SLOW, TALKATIVE, FAT, OLD, ANNOYING, GOOD MUSICIAN, MISSING TEETH. He’s a pretty cool guy when it comes down to it but he has a few strikes against him. (see above^^^) no pun intended. He has a small recording studio, is married to my sweet, sweet, motherly teacher of almost 11 years and does support my music. A while ago, my teacher (his wife) thought it might be cool for me to make a CD. AWESOME right?! Yes and no. Let’s just say it’s been nothing but trouble. He can be VERY unprofessional at times. Not really doing the work i would expect a producer to do. Anyway, I thought I had a lesson with him today to talk about our next recording session on the 26th (which should be an awesome one just btw) at 1:30. Apparently, NOT till 2:30 though. Which created an issue. I had to LEAVE town at 2:30 with some friends to show them where I live so they could do some work for my mom (this involved shoveling horse shit…which they did QUITE well…). Now im bored. Let’s talk about how cute my new hair is. I accidentally got myself red hair. used an oppsie color remover on my dyed black hair and got me some redish brown hair! I was going to dye blonde over it but…hey might as well work this for a while. I HAVE A CRUSH ON 10 MILLION PEOPLE. MOSTLY GIRLS BUT A COUPLE GUYS. Bob dylan is included. And yet no girl on girl action (say this in with a french accent. Is funny stuffs) for meees. Got a kiss from my bff anna today but that was just friendliness. GOOD LORD IS THAT HOW U SPELL THAT!? looks totally wrong. friendliness. hmm…. 2 sum it up, im sick of being single. Or perhaps just sick of getting no ass. Or as it were, titty. my spell checker says “tatty? Nitty?” Guess there’s no winning spell checkers approval (lack of red line) when it comes to vulgarity as such. Got a spanish quiz AND test (TESTIESSSS TESTIES) to make up tomorrow plus a really bad speech to give for the everlovely, mr.tillitson (mr. tittyson?) So nuhnight!

death

littledear — Tue, 26 Aug 2008 02:01:31 +0000

today i found out that one of my closest friends father finally passed away from ALS. I am in shock. This man, who was in pain from another non-related accident for as long as i have known him, suffered through yet another horrible debilitating sickness. Really, really sad.

I dont know what to do. How do you call someone after that happens? My best friend said that i should just say what’s in my heart. But i dont know what’s in my heart. I guess im sad for the family. I guess i get mad when people only worry about themselves and their little problems when my dear friend, sister really, has a parent who is gone. Plus, a mother who is good at flying into rages and abuse her verbally. I’ve felt this girls pain for a long time, i have co-dependancy issues and she has depression problems. I just dont know what to say, that’s all i guess.

Shana Logic

littledear — Sat, 23 Aug 2008 18:50:10 +0000

Aug 18, 2008

Shana Logic

This website has crazy cute things. not bad pricing too….

What I found today while searching for cuteness and awesomeness was the shirt with wings on it.

I want to make wings on the back of one of MY shirts! Also, as always I was on the look out for owls and came upon lots of worthy owl things but these two caught my eye. A to-do pad and a grumpy owl shirt!!!

god, i cant even stand it. to cute. So check it out- Shanalogic.com